[ Patrick looks down at their hands, smiling a little when David tightens his grip. It's not a completely happy smile. Even as he'd felt guilty and conflicting for even wanting this, he'd still harbored a little shred of hope. That once he confessed to what he was feeling, David would understand. His face would light up and he'd give Patrick that slow, smoldering grin, lips all twisted up to one side. He'd lean in close and whisper I liked it too.
Stupid.
But it's not a big deal. It had just been an idea, one he'd barely been able to admit he was fantasizing about, even to himself. David's not interested, and David's the one who's important to Patrick. So that's that.
But of course, David can't just let it be that. Patrick sighs out quietly through his nose, closing his eyes and waiting for him to finish. It doesn't even make sense. This isn't something they can exactly compromise on, and if David thinks for one second that Patrick's going to let him guilt himself into participating in something he's not one thousand percent on board with, just so Patrick can have an experience...
He stops. Actually processes David's words for a second. Rewinds their conversation in his head.
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Stupid.
But it's not a big deal. It had just been an idea, one he'd barely been able to admit he was fantasizing about, even to himself. David's not interested, and David's the one who's important to Patrick. So that's that.
But of course, David can't just let it be that. Patrick sighs out quietly through his nose, closing his eyes and waiting for him to finish. It doesn't even make sense. This isn't something they can exactly compromise on, and if David thinks for one second that Patrick's going to let him guilt himself into participating in something he's not one thousand percent on board with, just so Patrick can have an experience...
He stops. Actually processes David's words for a second. Rewinds their conversation in his head.
Then slowly raises his head to look at him. ]
What...do you mean, step out?